Laura came down to visit me this weekend. I really enjoyed being with her, just having someone that I can talk to without fear of rejection. [ God is so good to give me a loving family. ] My sisters have grown so much more precious to me the past couple years — if only it weren’t after we had all started to leave home and go our own ways.
Anyway, we had a lovely time shopping, going to a real Starbucks [a big event, in my car-less, small town life], cooking together, and watching a scary action movie. Talking about life and what we are learning. The learning curve has never been so steep. I’m not sure what to think about it all.
I’ve been meditating on 1 Corinthians 7:32-35 lately. It says:
32 I want you to be free from anxieties. The unmarried man is anxious about the things of the Lord, how to please the Lord.
33 But the married man is anxious about worldly things, how to please his wife, 34 and his interests are divided. And the unmarried or betrothed woman is anxious about the things of the Lord, how to be holy in body and spirit.
But the married woman is anxious about worldly things, how to please her husband. 35 I say this for your own benefit, not to lay any restraint upon you, but to promote good order and to secure your undivided devotion to the Lord.
I want to learn how to concern myself primarily with living for the things of the Lord; how to practice holiness in my life. It’s going to be a long path, I’m sure.
[they ask and I tell them I’m doing fine. the truth is, I’m fine at that moment, but not the next. there are so many terrible moments in between. ]